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28 Sep 2007, 9:27 am / Gay
Making a Start
I decided to make a start at this blog malarkey, so please give me a chance to get warmed up as this is a kind of experiment I'm initially planning to feature some poetry (not my own...I have a friend who's very good in my opinion and deserves to be read by more than two people, three if you count the author)and a few musings of my own. I'm not planning on long entries 'cos I reckon that gets boring and I'd prefer to put up short but regular posts instead. Well, that's it nothing earth shattering today, I'll tell you all about my glamourous and eccentric existence next time.
Got to get on with real work now or the wolf will be knocking
at the door. Keep spreading the love!
Long Nets of White Cloud my Memory
Been listening to a lot of Stevie Nicks stuff today so I reckon
I'm in a reminiscent frame of mind, which can be a good or
bad thing I guess, depending on what you're thinking about.
I've been pondering the period from 1985 (I was twenty one)
to 2002 (work it out). These years not only flew by but I'm
not totally sure that what I remember of them actually
happened, either in the order I recall or if indeed some
events took place at all. Obviously, I can pin some things
down by reference to others that were there, but because
of my tendency to disappear on my own and have
'adventures' some things cannot be confirmed by anyone I
remain in touch with. If you've seen the movie 'Harsh Times'
you'll get an idea what these years were like. One minute
acting responsibly, sane as anyone, the next...madness!
You had to be there. Second thoughts, just be glad you
weren't. The blessing is no one but me got seriously hurt.
I'm struck with just how lucky I am to have retained the
same closest friends and to have survived my own
subliminal need for self destruction. Yep, they were very
patient;conclusion of this post and today's
pondering is that, even though it's taken me longer than
most to 'grow up' and 'sober up' (not had any alcohol
since at least 2004, possibly longer, I'd have to look it up)
the 'clean' years have been the best for me, I really felt
everything, acted responsibly and most of all I haven't had
to wake up and apologise for something I don't remember
doing. It's a real miracle to see my Godchildren grow up
and set off on their own adventures. I just hope they don't
make the same mistakes I wilfully and drunkenly made
along the way. More on which later, but not today, I'm
feeling very lucky so it's a good time to break off and say
goodnight.
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